Looking for The One.

I've married my One and now, we are currently for The One person to take care of our Little One. I officially started the childcare search on Friday. I visited one church based center near us, which we loved. The standards are high, the ration of kids to teachers is very low and Ethan jumped right in to play. The bad news is that the cost is high-- very high for us. Jason makes good money, but pays out a buttload in credit debt and in child support. I don't make great money, but love my job... The center starts at $150 a week, so $200 more a month that what we're struggling to pay now. Option Number 1 is out of the question.
Option Number 2 was a shot in the dark. I searched craigslist and found a woman close to our neighborhood for $16 a day, the caveat that kids needed to bring their own lunches, which I prefer anyway. I drove by her house before hand and wasn't thrilled to see old play toys outside, right off of a busy street without a fence. We went anyway and I was so disappointed. The one room where the kids are allowed was packed with junk. The kids were just watching Noggin and yelling at one another. She has a pitbull, which she says is kept outside, but still made me nervous. When I asked about the equipment outside, she told me that she doesn't take the kids outside-- ever. As if the rest of it wasn't enough, that sealed the deal for me. I'm sure she is a very sweet woman and a good option for some parents, but I just couldn't imagine leaving Ethan there all day. Ugh.

I've got a few other numbers to call, but this is so disheartening. I really love my job and want to work, but I also don't want to sacrifice Ethan's care. Something's gotta give...